maybe im different in the sense that i dont play games. if im gonna talk to you later ill tell you instead of just stopping and leaving your head reeling: “what? no reply? what did i say wrong? im pretty sure i didnt say anything wrong. so why am i still waiting?”. ahh waiting now thats something i know about. everyone knows about it yeah, but i think im hyper-aware. so while im hyper-aware that the clock is ticking and im still sitting here, still waiting, im not playing games, you are. you should know better too. you know me better than that. this is what i image you thinking: “i know page. i know she doesnt play games so why should i? no nonsense. well only the good natured kind.”. i must be wrong. i thought.. i thought a lot of things. its 12:01(a.m.). i thought all of this yesterday, and now its today, and its still on my mind. i wish you would crawl through my window and play coraline on my tv, while we get close in my bed, while my parents sleep and maybe dream and dont know you are here. i only ever wish in my head. i dont wish on the clock or flowers or anything else. then they just turn into unnesessary disapointments floating in your brain. too many up there and you start to get progressively more sad.. and stay in your bed.. and quit talking to your friends.. and i dont want that anymore than it already happens (because sometimes it happens) and for that reason i dont wish on clocks or flowers or anything else like that.




p.s. why is everyone in my life rude and annoying right now?